Dream on 11.4.12.

Last night had a dream, was a unique one though so just thought of sharing it. I really felt that I was in my previous birth last night, OMG how unique was the experience but the dream ended in an anticlimax...... really something doesnt change, really doesnt change so much as expected with time.

Well, to be precise the dream goes like this. I am a member of a joint family, a joint Hindu, Brahmin orthodox family I must say, but ya was anyhow happy with it. I had a good rather very good mom, she was so nice n kind wth others. Wore the traditional bengali saree just like the bengali films in the 60's. She was really the Annapurna of the family as people knew that in the noon if any poor people comes at the door and says " মা, কিছু খাবার দেবে , আজ দুপুরে কিছুই জোটেনি" (Can I get some food, mother, had nothing since morning)  then they know that they will be fed to the fullest and maybe some excess given to their family too....!!!! 

Anywas, that was the situation. I also had an elder sister of mine.. she was maybe 5-6 years older then me and she was just like the replica of my mom in her deeds. She also was very caring to every members of the family and was a very adorable daughter too...... Ya, she used to bully me at times bt also loved me a lot. She was also a women possessing great talent coz she was by then a well known singer.

Now, the anticlimax part, all was ok and I was very happy to be a part of that family but their orthodox beliefs was something i just couldnt became part of.... well, in this dream i was just a 10 yr old boy so could undertstand many things, observed that bt didnt had a say on anything. So, as a kid I just observed eagerly the situations and noticed somethin which seemed quite odd to me. the incident was as follows:

My mom used to give food to the poor but never ever gave the plate with it. Just gave the food on their hands or they used to bring some banana leaf or paper on which the food was given. To my astonishment I observed the same with my elder sister too... I really could nt ask any question ( maybe that was the tradition I couldnt remember now that the younger cant question, donno the xact reason bt i just cant question). The poor people also didnt said anything, just had the food like they are havin it for the first time and went away. Donno i felt this quite inhumane bt didnt had enough courage to ask "Why are they doing this? if they wanna feed the poor feed then like human na " ... Just didnt had the courage donno why. 

One day, I just couldnt bear it anymore when my sister said that " পাতা কাগজ কিছুই আননি তো হাতেই নাও গরম খাবার ..... " and served the hot food in their hands bt they in urge of their hunger had that food only burning their hands.... that scene literally choked me...... I ran after my sister, sayin that they are also human why she is serving them like that to which she said that they are lower caste people so we cant allow them to have food with our utensils. That is the custom and the tradition of the family but I in my childish thinking only felt the pain that person had havin the boiling food in his hands and just literally fought with my sister to give him the dish. She was so nice and carin for us bt at this time I really felt that she was so brutal. 

So, my argument with her won atlast and she just threw the plate on the person on my requst bt said that no need to bring the plate back coz the plate has also lost its caste maybe as a lower caste person had its food on it.

So, this is the dream. I know we all dream at night and mostly the dreams are nt worth remembering bt this dream really shocked me a lot. Has the situation changed now even too much??????? I think no, what do u think friends????

If i analyse my dream, ya I craved for mom and even an elder sis in this birth so maybe my dream was a reflection of that, but the incident??? Really donno what was it, but just felt like sharin so shared..... !!!

tc buddy..... good night n have sweet dremss too.... :)